Today is full of doubts. What if I can’t completely change the way I eat and the way food affects me? I am a lazy eater when I’m at home. I’ll just eat anything convenient. Today at lunchtime it was mashed potatoes. My lunch was all starch, no protein, no nutrition. I can’t do that after surgery. I feel so weak-willed. For the first time since I started this process I am having tons of doubts. I’m scared – not of the surgery itself but of my ability to beat this.
I’m off to find a local support group. I know I need help.