Today is full of doubts.  What if I can’t completely change the way I eat and the way food affects me?   I am a lazy eater when I’m at home.  I’ll just eat anything convenient.  Today at lunchtime it was mashed potatoes.  My lunch was all starch, no protein, no nutrition.  I can’t do that after surgery.  I feel so weak-willed.  For the first time since I started this process I am having tons of doubts.  I’m scared – not of the surgery itself but of my ability to beat this.  

I’m off to find a local support group.  I know I need help.